Monday, June 14, 2010

Sleeping

It's really hard to go to sleep early when the sun doesn't go down! What's worse, I wake up when the sun is already rising. I wear sunglasses on my way to work! ...for someone who loves dark, stormy weather, this is the hardest part of the year for me.

Kisses,
Ashley

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Love Isn't Just a Word

Love is not just a word. Love is not a strong connection between two people. Love is not a physical act. Love is complicated and I think it would be better described as a symptom from the will and determination to progress with someone else. Family, friends, children, spouse...love is given through the actions needed to keep the relationship progressing. That doesn't mean all my actions are lovey-dovey. That doesn't mean all my decisions are right vs. wrong. What it means is that love comes from the desire to keep that person in my life, but love is definitely not easy.

I have learned for myself that distance, does not make the heart grown fonder. I have found that the majority of people fall out of love with each other, because they put distance between each other through career choices, life-style ambitions, or past experiences. Love can only exists when people have the desire to be together, no matter what career choices, life-style ambitions, or past experiences try to get in their way. This is why love is a growing process, not an instant state of mind.

What was a cloud of infatuation, does not just turn into a bubble of love. In fact, that fun cloud of infatuation typically evaporates into clear blue skies of reality...which is not always as fun as the cloud I started out in. But again, love is not fun; love is not pain. Fun and pain are only byproducts of the desire to keep a person in my life (love) and both are necessary in the long progression of my life.

But a relationship is not one sided and so the only people who remain in my life, are the ones who are willing to continue that effort in their life. And I want to take a moment to tell all the people in my life, who have been there for me when I needed them - and even when I didn't need them :} - that I love you.