Pondering

I wanted to check-in with a few life updates. Life is going great – I‘m still working on my list of virtues, but I have to say this month’s virtue (Justice) is kind of hard to conceptualize into a working virtue for me. I’m not a liar and I don’t find that I commit injustice to people – so unless I’m supposed to wear a mask and run around in a bath robe at night helping people, I’m not too sure what I’m supposed to be doing.

As always, I’m working on my humility and (surprise surprise) I’m having a difficult time with it. :} Something that my dad said to me a while ago keeps coming back to me when I get in moments where my stubbornness is trying to take over. He said, “Everyone has their limits, and sometimes your limits will exceed those of another person. And the way to live in harmony is to recognize that usually it is easier to taper back and meet that other person’s limits, than expect them to hyperextend their own.” At the time my protest to this was, “Well, then I’ll ALWAYS have to be the bigger person who has to make the sacrifices! That’s not fair.” But now that I’m looking back on that conversation there’s a balance in life, and to make those people, who I love, feel unnecessary stress because of my own conscious selfishness, or stubbornness isn’t fair. Not the other way around.

I’m not perfect, and I will probably have selfish or stubborn relapses, but I know I will get better, because I want the people I love to be happy, not stressed.

Kisses,

Ashley